Learning to create from abundance instead of scarcity: A life update

Things have been rough lately.

After I did the 30-day Running Streak, I was feeling inspired to create more opportunities to complete creative projects.

I was feeling brave and willing to take bolder risks.

I decided to adjust my spending and switch my full time Phlebotomy position at the clinic to only part time. I assumed that my day time job was taking up too much of my time and I could complete more creative projects by working less hours at the clinic.

I went from working 40 hours a week to only 24 hours.

My plan didn’t work out. After 6 months of being part time, I am back to being Full time.

There were 3 consequences I didn’t consider before I took the leap to becoming a part time employee.

1)     I didn’t consider how isolated I would feel from saying no to hangouts with friends because I was afraid of spending money.

2)     I thought I could cut back on my grocery spending and maintain by physical and mental health.

3)     I didn’t realize I would become less efficient with my time because I would worry about money so damn much. To make up for the lack of income I started doing more gig jobs. Splitting my time between Favor and Amazon Flex deliveries.

I thought I would complete more creative projects and get clients if I stopped being a full-time employee but ultimately my plan did not work out.

I’ve learned that I have the privilege of completing creative projects if I have structure in my daily routine and don’t have the added pressure of having to make an income based on my creative projects.

Decreasing the amount of stable income caused me to approach my creativity from a scarcity mindset. Instead of money being a tool to give me peace of mind, I made it the source of my anxiety.

I made the assumption that I could handle the pressure of making an income based on my creativity work. I was wrong.

I am grateful that I have the flexibility of being able to switch back to full time.

I am looking forward to what I will create now that have a new found respect for my day time job.

I do not consider going back to my full time position as a setback, instead I consider it as a new opportunity to create abundance in my life.

Peace out,

Reibert-Anthony