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Feeling Lucky and Hopeful

What my phlebotomy job does for me?

Which coping mechanisms is working best?

When will I surround myself with encouraging beings?


What my phlebotomy job does for me?

I’m a believer in if you have nothing nice to say then it’s better to say nothing at all. I haven’t shared any new drawings or any new posts because lately it's been a lot of negativity and there is already enough of that. I’ve been trying to change the script/narrative and it’s taken a lot of effort. I am constantly having to deal with my loneliness and being careful with my decisions. Completing my quarter classes and the self paced Sofia courses has been a priority that requires me to sacrifice time I would spend socializing with study time. I also have to tolerate the chaos that is my phlebotomy job. I am grateful that it is offering me tuition reimbursement but it also causes me a lot of stress to work with chaotic-minded people. Having to constantly adjust the way I speak and act at work is exhausting. The job doesn’t offer me the stability I would like to have from a job. The high turnover and the chaotic leadership doesn’t create a space of stability.

Which coping mechanisms is working best?

Tolerating chaos at this level causes me to create space for coping. I think the feeling that I am coping with is frustration. I know what I am working towards and knowing that while I have a lot of opportunity in my current space, I also share this space with unreliable people. So I am keeping a weight training and running routine that keeps my body in movement. I’ve practiced this coping mechanism for a while so it’s a reliable coping mechanism. Another coping mechanism is listening to book summaries on the app Headway. So far I have kept a 14 day streak of listening for a minimum of 10 minutes. Lastly, I have been using the Duolingo app to learn French, currently on day 286 of my learning streak. Headway and Duolingo are changing the way I self talk because instead of having negative self talk, I listen to inspiring and motivational summaries. I think Headway is helping me the best in coping with my frustrations and loneliness.

When will I surround myself with encouraging beings?

I am not sure. It feels like I’ve taken a step backwards from surrounding myself with encouraging beings because so far I have met people that have made sure I feel out of place, make me feel like I don’t belong here. Maybe I’m being bitter or too harsh. I know it’s easier for people not to care then it is for them to care for their own. I understand I am an outsider. I don’t think I can be myself here. I think I have to be version of myself that stays neutral and patient.

Thanks for reading,